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My life led up to that moment for sure, a lot of the things I thought and found through contemplation and studying. Basically we needed top get rid of a waterbed so this guy called us from craigslist and i helped him take it apart and load it and he kinda felt prompted to ask me my thoughts on the subject which is obviously a loaded topic for a stranger but he was chill and it wasnt like those aggressive people who tell everybody this shit but anyway just through our conversation he was talking about having been in prison and got saved and healed someone who was dying and that god speaks through him. my neighbor always tried to talk to me about this shit my whole life and i pretty much tuned him out and thought my idea was more correct but this other guy was a bit differnt. but it really has nothing to do with this guy. one of things that happened is i couldnt think of a certain word and once i got in my car and thought about the conversation and asking the world, god, what is the name of that word. it immediately came to mind. Conduit. this idea is very reminiscent of the buddhist idea that you already know everything, you just have to 'remember' (this thought came to my knowledge in middle school from digital fortress (just forgot it and asked right there lol) by dan brown) anyway i just started asking and it clicked. ive always believed in sunyata, the eternal void, the womb from which all things are. but whatever it was god now and i knew it. i am incredibly weary of language in that certain words have certain vibrations and maybe common words in our language are actually 'dark' words (evil seems too much but you get the point) so sometimes i switch the name around. i still am not a christian though. i rarely speak with words jesus (if i needed to for a conversation id say yeshua)so im not all into that stuff however i do think old spiritual texts like the bible do have something of a divine nature. i dont believe in coincidence anymore so i would say quite often timing and coincidence reinforce my beliefs. i picked an object. a pinecone to represent being on the correct path and see them often when im thinking about something of a spiritual nature and often take whether its open or closed or theres a lot or there particularly pretty as various levels of my spirituality at the moment. when i feel shitty i feel i tend to see more fucked up ones. but thats just one example. i have brought the number 3 into my life to be another reinforcement and i have constantly been seeing 33 and 333 in my life. i have found the more i look into rappers i like, the more actually believe in god and are spreading the message subtly trying to peak the interested. you definitely wont find this stuff if you dont have an interest in finding the unusual and deeper meaning and possibility. i am a cynic though i love to think about 'what could be' but that doesnt mean i believe its true. idk long ramble. seek for yourself ye are your own light. i am a proponent for the little boat.
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TLDR; basically listen to this song i made exactly about this : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dgE1aR6S9bE
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| cauz |
April 30, 2017, 8:28 p.m. |
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| Corey Haim |
But one led to two, two led to four, four led to eight, until at the end it was about 85 a day - the doctors could not believe I was taking that much. And that was just the valium - I'm not talking about the other pills I went through. |
| Lucy Hale |
I overanalyze things way too much, to the point where it affects my life. Like, when I'm talking to a boy, I'll overanalyze a text message he sent. And I have to think to myself, 'Just chill out. Some guy sent me a text message. That's all. Don't read something into it that's not there. Just be glad he sent you a text message!' |
| Gabriel Iglesias |
I just know you can not be on top forever. There's always going to be the next guy, and if I'm going to go down, I'd like to know I helped the next guy take my spot. You can't prevent the inevitable, but you can join the ship. |
| Larry David |
I still think of that guy I was without a wife or kids, and I still want to entertain that guy. The lonely guy, the frustrated guy, the guy with no money - this is the guy who needs to laugh. |
| Lou Holtz |
I think that everybody needs four things in life. Everybody needs something to do regardless of age. Everybody needs someone to love. Everybody needs something to hope for, and, of course, everybody needs someone to believe in. |
| Christine Ebersole |
In 1998, the acting roles suddenly bottomed out. I was no longer getting scripts; even my agent stopped calling. When I finally got him on the phone to ask him what was going on, he paused, then said: 'Well, Christine, you're 45.' I got rid of him. |
| Liane Balaban |
I thought I'd be a journalist, and only pursued acting intermittently while studying. My very first interview as a journalist was with David Usher of Moist, and he called the magazine the next day to say it was the best interview he'd done for his solo album. I felt like a million euros. |
| Saint Ignatius |
Experience proves that in this life peace and satisfaction are had, not by the listless but by those who are fervent in God's service. And rightly so. For in their effort to overcome themselves and to rid themselves of self-love, they rid themselves of the roots of all passion and unrest. |
| Ron Paul |
You wanna get rid of drug crime in this country? Fine, let's just get rid of all the drug laws. |
| Matthew Henry |
Eve was not taken out of Adam's head to top him, neither out of his feet to be trampled on by him, but out of his side to be equal with him, under his arm to be protected by him, and near his heart to be loved by him. |
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Dream last night:
Was in a zoom call, presenting some stuff that I was being evaluated on. I discovered in my dream that I really like geometry and wish I knew some physics shit. I felt like I knew what I was talking about in my presentation about something like the physics of things with different geometric properties. Would be cool if I was actually on to something in real life. I do remember being in a light car chase scene, nothing too serious, it was more like a mario cart race and I was having one of those meme moments with the person calculating a bunch of shit in their mind, and that had something to do with this geometric genius I was presenting.
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Basically the overview of the dream was that we all went to a party that wasn't quite earthly and within this part there were different experiences in different places like different universes through doors. We all were at this party but it was in different places to the 3 of us. Then throughout the other dimensions we stayed together and saw some of the same places. For example in my dream we were in a downtown area like East Lansing mixed with Zanzibar and each bar we went to was a completely different experience and party. One of these other dimensions was on a desert high way where there were bridges over head and it seemed to be going to a strange place. I remember being on the phone while driving talking to my homie like I gotta get back to the place where we all were. In everyones dream there seemed to be a portion where there was a fuck ton of people. I'm leaving out basically all the details of everyones specific dream but it was some crazy shit for sure. To me, it proved ano...
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"I've had to live my life pretending that I'm colorblind."
One day in middle school, we were doing something with colors, I cant remember what but it had to do with colors, so I turned to the girl next to me and said as a joke, "Which one of these is blue? I'm colorblind.", while holding up 3 markers that weren't even close to blue. But here's the catch, she actually thought that I was colorblind, so she points out what the blue one was and we go on with our day. Or so I thought. About a week later someone is talking about uno, and I remember this because this was one of the weirdest conversations I've had with someone. So were talking about uno, and the girl goes, "Cal, you must be a shitty uno player because you're colorblind.", so everyone starts asking about it and I have to come up ...
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now WHO AM I TO TRUST?
different person
ive said it before and ill say it again
im changing
i want to get better
i want to love more
i want to change my ways
ive already changed my frame of mind
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I had a dream that I was in my grandmas house and my siblings kept coming and going and I was running around the house trying to gather things. I don't really know what I was doing. My dad was just sitting in the living room telling me that I needed to do things but I never really knew what he was talking about.
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I had a dream that Jerry from Rick and Morty was a giant monster and he was attacking me and I was running around this building and trying to kill him with a bow and arrow. My friend kept saying "hey are you ready to leave" like it was a videogame that she wanted me to stop playing but it wasn't. It felt like real life and like I was fighting for my life. Super weird.
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I had a dream that there was a dollhouse or something and that people in the real world could be put in the dollhouse and they'd be like copies of the people. Inside the dollhouse, there were these giant slug things that would latch on to people and suck the life out of them. The people were trying to escape. They thought that they were the real people and didn't know that they were copies.
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i had a dream within a dream within a dream last night
in the deepest dream, which is the hardest to remember, I know there was something scary. I don't remember what exactly was scary, but I do remember it involved being in a spooky-looking basement, one of those that feels cold, drippy, moist like a cave, spider webs all over. I think this basement was pretty empty. I remember being in a stairway that led down to it, looking down into its depths, the golden light behind me fading darker with each step.
I remember being in the basement. I don't remember what was happening in there. I wasn...
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i love love love synchronicity! never in my life i thought i would share a room with ben or tom and its so cool when shit happens like that. also, never thought my friends would live in BK and id go out there with my other friends. cool shit
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"never thought id say this, used to be an atheist. actually i believed in unification. but now i found a way that made sense put some faith in it. wanna help others, helpin people is my favorite. remember how i thought, looked down on god. thought i had it right but realize now im wrong"
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